Systematic De-Contruction of Sanity

You're supposed to work hard, live hard and love hard your young life to be able to afford a life of happiness and serenity or sanity which ever seems more convenient. These days I'm starting to wonder if the "American Dream" is just some over inflated comic strip bubble floating above our heads like an impeding speech. Surely my dream of one day retiring to my Winnie with the trailer on the back with my Harley Sportster driving all over this great big o'l country of ours is not so far fetched.

With the way things are going, I'd be lucky to have a retirement check for 300 dollars a month and a PT job at the local newspaper that will eventually lead to high blood pressure, a bad back, and arthritis. My idea of a vacation would be riding the public trans to the neighboring town to watch a matinee at the local theater. And not even a first run theater!

Is this what I've worked hard for... what I am striving for even now... So many ideals and so little truth. The laws that "the" government creates are working one more step towards a dictatorship with bureaucrats shoving recommendations in the form of money down our leaders pockets. They aren't my leaders, my role models, or even my advocates. They are the termites of society.

There are many things we are born naturally to do but most of the things are learned along the way. I am a bi-product of a mass churning consuming society. It lives and breathes the air we exhale only to turn around and poison what's left to inhale. I am a child of anger and a child of hurt. But somewhere along the way, in a world that naturally demoralizes purity, I have learned to naturally be hopeful, honest, and dreamy. The constant battle of what is ideally the case is never truly the case.

Its only a matter of time before it systematically de-constructs my sanity.